Maybe titles should be latent

My lover.. a lot of time has passed and I am but an alien. I'm hurting the girl. I'm hurting the girls. I'm hurting me by thinking like this, and I cry every night and only fractionally know why. It's insanity and despair.

I still search for you blindly while calling to the cause never knowing your name. There are no contenders or leads other than my mind and it's alone. Always by itself and waiting. It's like Cerberus at the wrong sea to scratch at different foams and foliage. I'm sorry. But it won't end for me for you.

If anyone liked me I'm losing them fast and while sober. Don't worry about me.. What is free will when we die. Maybe we could find out amongst the erases of this page..

Nothing disgusts me more with love than when it must be connected to money. Even if you're always her.. I'm going to keep looking.. I owe you that even if faulted, and I've caught more eyes.