We don't get to

We split. Me and the girl (Angel). She's been saying that she needs a break, but she's forcing me to change. I always got this feeling that she didn't like me or barely liked me. Honestly,it makes me sad to think about. She broke her phone or gave it away, or lost it or whatever and got a new number I weaseled out of her. 1 month dedicated to this. Everybody in this house has been working my nerves too at the same time by pressing details into my eyes. Forcing me to look at eggs. Forcing me to look at ironic clothes or talk about the relationship.

Honestly, I don't think I get to be married. Haven't for a while. She left a hentai sticker and I felt compelled to destroy it. Almost a counter balance to her nice self indulgent bs. I honestly wished I kept it. But why should I hold memories of people determined to leave. There's a bunch of morons and narcissists here who would want her. I personally don't want to see or think much about them or the situation. They even put "Botched" on the television to tell me things I already know.

I want to drink, I want to do my narcotic meds, and I want to say I still think abouy emotion.

You might still be out there.

I will search again. I'm trying now. She knows... But.... Idk if she can do much but irritate my friends and slow down their work...

I really wish things get better...

I loved her truly...

But I don't think she's you.

Not yet.

I'm fucked up.

Bad dog.....